Saturday, May 27, 2006

Vodka

I thought you were going to leave us last night

You are brave. You did not flinch or whimpered a sound at all during the surgery. I knew it hurt. I have cried out for you. Only then, you broke free from my hands that were restraining you in place and looked up at me~ as if quizzing: “ What’s wrong? I’m fine.”

I have hugged you tightly and sent little pleas with tears to whoever was listening, up there. You were bleeding non-stop. Please make it stop. I could feel your body going weak and limp. Please. Please stand up again. It was not the time for you to go. Not yet. Just not the time~ yet.


You were miserable, walking lopsided to the infected ear with that huge bandage. You tried to get it off when no one was looking. I have to bandage you again and again till late in the night and once the bandage was taken off, you shook yourself vigorously, covering me with blood. But…. anything for you.

I have feared for that painful day of grief; when you were truly gone. And that’s a future date- Just not now.

Please get well soon.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

To Hell and Back

It seemed to be decades that I am finally back in Singapore. In one piece. War battered and scarred. These few days, I have been throwing my arms wildly around and banging tables to create a dramatic impact while relating to mates about my traumatic experiences in Kuala Lumpur- thus I will not elaborate much about the worst nightmare I ever have here.

Just don’t get me started.

I was not cruising around in KL... I was sloughing my guts and breath out for work over there. The local operator has planned an Amazing Race for the 300 delegates from China in KL. But seriously, the ‘planning’ have only been on his lips and flimsy and totally useless papers. There was nothing like what was communicated- on the Race day, the game marshals have no inkling about their roles and where they supposed to be stationed.

When things went haywire, my heart seemed to be complaining bitterly about the tremendous stress I have inflicted on it, my stomach started churning- nothing, as there was simply no time for breakfast and lunch – not even a toilet break.

I tried my best to salvage the Race… but at 3rd stage of the game, we abandoned the entire Race as the marshals were nowhere in sight, everything was madly out of control and delegates were protesting with all their might.

And all the time I have to act, to the confused delegates that EVERYTHING WAS SO GODAMNED FINE. THE COMPLICATIONS WERE EXACTLY AS PLANNED.

I am amazed. I survived it. All.

I wonder whichever was worst- 1) you screwed up your event with own negligence or 2) someone failed to perform his part causing you to endure stern scolding from clients- where you can’t possibly tell them that IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT.

I have thought tears will be lurking around at the back of my eyes…. Trying to break in whenever there is a chance. But, apparently I’m so freaking busy, trying to cope with the crisis on hand~ Ms Brain actually formed a sturdy wall to prevent tears from flooding into my eyes.

After the crisis, I saw the man who failed his promise, duty and trust. I could no longer bring myself to say anything. He kept silent too; as if beseeching a confrontation from me.
Not that I have damned sixth sense- but there was already bad premonition about the Race before it even get started- but it have been my wrong ‘character’ judgment that persuaded me to trust this ‘experienced’ Race planner.

Mich and Ben wondered aloud that they were impressed about the way I handled the grumbling, rude Chinese delegates- that I can bring myself to pacify them when they were bombarding me with loud protests and complaints. Well, my attitude astonished myself too. I seemed to be a totally different person- can almost see that patient self pacifying the group as a third person.

Maybe it was the way I see it- it’s understandable they were unhappy and angry. It was the organisers’ fault that things turned out to be a disaster- even though it was something beyond our control. We are supposed to bring them enjoyable memories for this incentive trip and I felt terribly guilty that things turned out this way too.

It was only after this trip, I truly appreciated how mistakes and problems helped me to grow. How do I react in face of impending crisis, how do I deal with pressure and stress….. Nightmarish experiences it may be, but it sure pump up my passion for events management. I just love it, those ups and downs………….!

However, on a last note, the most ultimate moral of this tale:
Don’t ever trust someone so completely

Monday, May 01, 2006

PEK

Great shopping experience (Good quality at low price)
A Makansutra Heaven... (FOooood!)

Cleaner streets with almost non-existent spit (Olympics is coming... )
Friendlier locals (Yeah.. Olympics is definitely coming...)


Just like what Celine, a french from my group said:
"I will love to be back in Beijing someday.... "


Well, hell yeah... I just to be back in any country I have been to...

It's all, All about Life


Pulau Tioman

Clear blue sky, sparkling sea and soft fine beach


MTV in making


Gerald's virgin snorkelling trip.

It's a smashing Underwater Kingdom ~ took our breath away...

Fairies by the bubbling waterfall

The amount of food we ate, can feed an army.....












Shed...
Tears of mad laughter that best mates brought
Silent tears for the captured little shark
Blood for brushing against the corals in course of swimming
Sweat in weird attempts to keep fit by the balcony


Yes, we'll definitely be back..