Cos...

Did a color personality quiz this afternoon; it depicted my love life as:
According to Luscher's theories, this indicates that you're holding back from having deep attachments. While sex brings you physical satisfaction, you're more emotionally withdrawn with your partners.

And I just had a heart-to-heart chat with Roomie- telling her all about that bittersweet summer romance. * Thanks, babe. I feel better now...

It amazed me how the ‘usually strong and independent’ women like us can get teary and feel so helpless once we are back at Gold Coast. I was seriously contemplating to buy a one way ticket back to Singapore- for a brief, heavy moment. This time, homesickness got me real bad- surprisingly worse than the first time.

Perhaps, just like what Roomie analyzed, I was very much pampered by the loving attention and thoughtful care given by him so much- that his absence was sorely felt now.

I am at a loss. Losing grip of understanding what the hell I am feeling and thinking now. Acceptance or not- seemed like two dead ends to me. They no longer provide a solution- they churned out problems and complicated the matter further instead.

Decided to put my good old faith on Time to solve this for me, although it has been taking its damn sweet pace to torment me with memories and loads of ‘what if’.

Time, do hasten… before Selfishness chases Empathy and Self-respect away and rules over my heart.