So tired

3 events in a week….
Not just physically exhausted but mentally as well…. Strange to say it, but none of the events was mine- I was merely the helper but my stamina running low like a broken kite.
Jeanette’s 1st event with Amex on Tuesday was a success. Congrats, girl!
But I have to admit that this event has taken a big piece out of my vitality for the week… She was coordinating the Fashion show and I have to help with the rest of the stuff like F&B and hostesses (that were engaged to usher the guests). Jasmine was to cue the Lion Dance’s performance, looking damned cute with the 2 lions waiting by her side.
It’s all about team’s work, isn’t?
I can’t say the same for Gabriel’s other two events that followed. Somehow his threshold for stress is low. Started to command people to do his bidding when he was high with anxiety. I was rather intolerant of such attitude- even though we are good friends. Found myself often in foul mood when helping with his events…. Somehow he seems to be accustomed to throw tasks on me… Maybe like what Jeanette remarked- I am his security blanket.
Event management is where my forte lies in. I can help you to handle the event flow and settle hicks, if any. But it was really unacceptable when I am worrying about YOUR event and you are doing your socialization, happily mingling with the guests.
There’s one incident that I asked for a confirmation from Gabriel to release Beatrice Chia from her Emcee duty – for bloody 20 min I have waited but to no avail. When I went looking for him, he just told me- like a matter of fact-:
“Oh. She can leave only after 10pm.”
I felt so sorry letting Beatrice stood at a corner, waiting for my reply. Felt angrier when that moron already knew about it and couldn’t be bothered enough to come back to me. I glared at him for a long time when he asked me to notify Beatrice about it – till he got the blunt hint and scurried off, looking for her.
What the F**K?
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I am now officially helping Uncle Don with his Event Management side. No idea if it is considered as a promotion (but definitely a pay raise + more commission on the way.. : p ) Excited at the prospect of acquiring more technical knowledge of set-up… Alright!
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I am extremely thankful to have him in my life.
I can’t find a more listening ear than his… listening to my grumbling, bantering and rambling about almost everything, especially about my work. I told him about Marcus too, which was so inconsiderate of me…. Damned selfish bitch…
But at this stage of life, I found myself alone, despite in midst of friends and offered companionships. He is the one, beside Ethan, that I can pour my heart out and does not mind the unsightly yet the bluntest truths about me.
There’s no one that can really understand me like he does. He is selfless…always here for me. We seek comfort and encouragement in each other for the past year. I knew at times he wished for my non-existence- so that the past can be erased painlessly...
I’m sorry, baby. I am here to stay as a pest – can’t bear to stay away... cos I can’t resist hearing your soothing voice when I am down. Can’t lose someone who accepts me for all I am…