Falling

Going crazy. Abnormal. Stupidly depressing

Plagued with a sinking, heavy feeling that I have no idea how to keep afloat in the turbulent water. No matter what I did to chase the gloom away, it was pointless. I felt trapped. Helpless. Nothing can cheer me up. Nothing at all.
Maybe I should give it up.. Everything I have now - but what exactly do I have now?
I have no idea that work can drive me so dejected like this. No idea how humongous my pride in work is… till now. Suffocated… demoralized and awfully vulnerable.

Used to think that I have high resilience power to overcome any obstacles that stood in my way. But not now, apparently

I have stopped dead in the midst of a tough journey with tears in my eyes. Have cowered into a corner, shielding myself with silence.
But that dreaded feeling wouldn’t disappear, despite my pleas…

Brace up. Before you are swallowed by darkness of melancholy….

I know that I can’t escape. Will hate myself for doing that. I can only but move on. I will persist till I collapse. At least I have tried my best- didn’t I?

Thanks for believing in me. You always tell me that I am strong and independent- that’s why you are so in love with me. Now that you seen the other side of me yet you didn’t stay away. You believe that I will be up and bouncing again.

I will