When I am gone

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I am going
Really going
And the thought frightens me

I feel like staying put
I wish I didn’t have to go
I wish I had taken up Imagine’s job offer
And continue a normal life like I always did

I wish I didn’t have to go all the way to a foreign land
And start the whole process of making new friends
There isn’t gonna be another Lynn Xie to say hi on the 1st day of school
To mark fantastic beginning of my Poly life

I will not be able to squabble and play rough with my sis
Fight with my bro for PC anymore
Or listen to my parents’ chatters about anything, everything
And hug Vodka for comfort when I am down.

I thought I would be strong
But tears fell on the keyboard as I typed
I know I am stepping into a new life
And I am gonna be fine with the girls by my side

This isn’t just about my hang-ups about the new stage
I am fretting about the things I have to leave for it
The people I have treasured and loved
The family who have sacrificed for me
The friends that have stood by me
The company I will die for to stay in

I hope the change worth them all
A silly wish it is
But I want time to stand still in Singapore
And nothing will change
At all

I do not have a god in my heart
But I am praying now
That everyone I loved will be safe in the good hands of God
When I am gone